Today is my firstborn, Destiny's 14th birthday. I can remember as a little girl playing with my dolls and how I would dream of being a mother some day. I remember as a teenager dreaming of having a baby girl and being her mother. I always wanted a daughter and to be honest, I wanted a daughter when I was pregnant with Justice too, but we don't have to tell him about that. :)
In my late teens, I remember praying one night and asking God if I would ever get the opportunity to be a mom. I asked Him to give me a dream to answer my question and that night He did. I dreamt of a little girl with blonde, curly hair and bright blue eyes. I knew if I ever had a baby that I would be having a girl. I knew her name would be Destiny because she was the little girl in my dream who was destined to be mine.
I wrote this poem earlier this week for Destiny. She made my biggest dream come true and I thank God for her every day. She is the sweetest, wackiest girl I know. She is so much like her momma that it isn't even funny. :) My life wouldn't be complete without her in it.
Happy 14th Birthday, Destiny!
Thank you for being the daughter of my dreams!
I love you more than you will ever know!
A Mother Out Of Me
As a little girl I would daydream
Of the woman I would grow to be
I wanted to fall deeply in love
And live a life full of happiness and glee
As a teenage girl I would daydream
Of adulthood and all it would bring
I wanted it all, career and family
All in all, I wanted for everything
As a young woman I would daydream
Of the life I was just starting to live
It was full of excitement of the unknown
I had so much to offer; so much to give
You see as a little girl daydreaming
With my baby doll I would play
I fell so deeply in love
With the daughter I would have someday
And as a teenager daydreaming
Of the adult I desperately wanted to be
You were everything I wanted
You were the best part of my family
Then as a young woman daydreaming
As I found out I was with child
The unknown became scary and exciting
And I knew life was worth the while
My entire life I spent dreaming of a daughter
Her blonde hair and her eyes of blue
Then one day, God saw the desire of my heart
And He made my every dream come true
It was on that special day I became
Who my whole life I always dreamed I would be
That cold, snowy day my dreams came true
When you being born, made a mother out of me
- LaDawn Cossey
December 30, 2014